Houston, or rather flisters, we have a problem.
I. Am. OBSESSED. With. Hollyoaks. As The World Turns' Nuke has been kicked out the door (I love them still, but right now I'm just not interested) and I've reverted back to my HO craze, catching up on all the episodes I missed first time around last year with John-Paul, Craig and Kieron and I've been writing drabbles and fanfiction based on McDean.
I don't know... I've never seen myself as a crazed fangirl. I think I was when I was younger but now... I can't quite take the hype. I can only handle it in small doses. But today I think I scared myself; I wrote several drabbles and went looking for the 2007/2008 episodes online. I think I need a bit of variety in my day; I've become addicted to the show. And I know, judging by the amount of time my friends at Uni spent in their rooms watching DVDs, that I'm not alone.
But really, I think I need a bit of space from the fandom, but it's so hard because now I've been going onto Youtube for a daily fix. Kieron's character in particular worried me; I mean, the guy's a priest who gave up his role in the church and that interfered with my OCD a bit, I think. But hey, it's just a soap-opera.
I really need to get myself back together. I've been staying up late, getting up late and then spending the day surfing the net and yes, you guessed it, watching HO clips. I think there's better things I could be doing with my day:
*Walking across the fields. I need to get more air and maybe it'll get my original creativity again.
*Learn to knit. I asked for wool and knitting needles for my birthday and I got them but I haven't used them yet.
*Read more. Got a big bookpile; needs shifting.
*Go to the gym. I went today and brought a Milky Way bar immediately afterwards.
*Work on my original stories.
*Ring my friends. I hardly ever talk to my mates on the phone because we socialise through Facebook, mostly. Be nice to hear their voices and get in touch with what's going on in reality because sometimes I think I isolate myself a bit too much.
I know I'm still a teenager and my hormones are allowed to go wild at this point in my life. It just feels a little strange to me sometimes. I'm the kind of girl who tends to like the characters compared to the actual actors; I know how weird that sounds because it's the actors who make the characters and I know the difference obviously. So I know I'm not going to go online and cruise for random pictures of the actors. I just like watching their characters in action on Youtube.
The other thing that worries me is that because I've often liked having my own space, this is tied in with that. I sometimes feel like I'm cutting myself off from my friends; I love them dearly, but I like my own space, I like living in my own world. I just can't stop daydreaming, I can't switch off. My mind always has to be thinking about something or other.
Aaargh, 'tis a crazy world inside this here mind...
I. Am. OBSESSED. With. Hollyoaks. As The World Turns' Nuke has been kicked out the door (I love them still, but right now I'm just not interested) and I've reverted back to my HO craze, catching up on all the episodes I missed first time around last year with John-Paul, Craig and Kieron and I've been writing drabbles and fanfiction based on McDean.
I don't know... I've never seen myself as a crazed fangirl. I think I was when I was younger but now... I can't quite take the hype. I can only handle it in small doses. But today I think I scared myself; I wrote several drabbles and went looking for the 2007/2008 episodes online. I think I need a bit of variety in my day; I've become addicted to the show. And I know, judging by the amount of time my friends at Uni spent in their rooms watching DVDs, that I'm not alone.
But really, I think I need a bit of space from the fandom, but it's so hard because now I've been going onto Youtube for a daily fix. Kieron's character in particular worried me; I mean, the guy's a priest who gave up his role in the church and that interfered with my OCD a bit, I think. But hey, it's just a soap-opera.
I really need to get myself back together. I've been staying up late, getting up late and then spending the day surfing the net and yes, you guessed it, watching HO clips. I think there's better things I could be doing with my day:
*Walking across the fields. I need to get more air and maybe it'll get my original creativity again.
*Learn to knit. I asked for wool and knitting needles for my birthday and I got them but I haven't used them yet.
*Read more. Got a big bookpile; needs shifting.
*Go to the gym. I went today and brought a Milky Way bar immediately afterwards.
*Work on my original stories.
*Ring my friends. I hardly ever talk to my mates on the phone because we socialise through Facebook, mostly. Be nice to hear their voices and get in touch with what's going on in reality because sometimes I think I isolate myself a bit too much.
I know I'm still a teenager and my hormones are allowed to go wild at this point in my life. It just feels a little strange to me sometimes. I'm the kind of girl who tends to like the characters compared to the actual actors; I know how weird that sounds because it's the actors who make the characters and I know the difference obviously. So I know I'm not going to go online and cruise for random pictures of the actors. I just like watching their characters in action on Youtube.
The other thing that worries me is that because I've often liked having my own space, this is tied in with that. I sometimes feel like I'm cutting myself off from my friends; I love them dearly, but I like my own space, I like living in my own world. I just can't stop daydreaming, I can't switch off. My mind always has to be thinking about something or other.
Aaargh, 'tis a crazy world inside this here mind...
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